The past five to six months have been extremely difficult for me. I am not going to go into detail because it is a personal/family matter and I want to keep it that way. However I am trying to move past it, to forgive and forget. But it is damn near impossible to get past it when certain people insist on bringing it up. It is not something that I want to rehash over and over again everytime I talk to these people (names are being with held to protect the extremely insensitive numb-nuts).
Throughout this whole ordeal I have some how managed to keep my sanity. Though it is only hanging on by a very thin string and let me tell you that this string is worn out and frayed and with one mediocre pull the string will break and what little sanity I have left will be gone, possibly forever.
Now I donâ€™t know what will happen if and when my sanity disappears. I donâ€™t know if I will be the type of lunatic who hurts people or the type who sits in the corner, drooling, trying to kill imaginary bugs. But I am not looking forward to either one, though there are some people that I would like to seriously injure. Actually, I would take great pleasure in harming these people.
Anywho, the point of this post is in hopes that said insensitive numb-nuts will read this and, God willing, will finally get some common sense. I do not want to talk about what has been happening the past 6 months and if for whatever reason I do want to talk about it with you then I will bring it up since technically it has not a damn thing to do with you and is really none of your business.
If you do bring it up (in either question form or a snide remark) and I decided to steer the conversation in another direction that is my polite way of letting you know to â€œShut your fucking mouth before I strangle you with my shoe laces!â€ Also, saying a comment on said subject in a jokingly manner is not acceptable either. If you do have a death wish and insist on making remarks you had better hope and pray that there are no sharp objects in my reach.
Even if after my repeated warning you still insist on opening this very painful wound of mine then I will have no choice but to chew your insensitive ass out and cut off all contact with you, including the contact you may have with my daughter, and you will no longer be welcome in my home until you can learn that this subject is not one to bring up.
If all this seems a bit harsh well then you can kiss my fat ass. I have dealt with enough shit for the past six months and I am now doing everything in my power to make sure I donâ€™t have to deal with anymore, to make sure I do not get put through anymore pain because of said subject.