Still At It

Yesterday, I went out driving again. Trying to get use to it without panicking and Mike said that I did a good job. I drove for about an hour and during that time I had periods were I was calm and in control and then other times I would start to doubt myself, my heart would start to race and my mind would repeat over and over that I can not do this, that I am going to wreck my mother in law’s car. My hands would start to hurt from gripping the steering wheel so damn tight. When I first started, it was cars passing me that got me nervous but now it’s going around turns. Cause I keep thinking that I am going to go over the yellow line when I am going around a turn and run head on into oncoming traffic. Or I’m afraid I will confuse the gas for the break.This is all stuff that comes into my head while I am driving. I wish I could push it out and not think about it but I do not seem to have the control to keep negative thoughts out of my head. Something as simple as driving and I am starting to have small panic attacks during the whole process. I need to get the negative thoughts and my self doubts under control soon cause I only have until the 17th of December to take the driving test.


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    November 8, 2007 at 9:02 pm

    omg you don’t have a D.L? LOL I didn’t get mine until I was 19 years old. I got caught when I was 16 with none and I couldn’t get them until I was 18.

    I like your new theme too.

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    November 9, 2007 at 12:04 am

    I know exactly how you feel Manda. I go through the same thing. I always have small panic attacks before I leave to drive in the car alone, worrying about turns and lights and traffic. And I always doubt myself in the car. There are times I can just sit back and relax, like you mentioned you do also, and other times where my heart starts racing because I don’t feel I exactly know how to handle any given “car” related situation that comes up (such as having to take a road I’m not used to, having an ambulance behind me, etc).

    I was a wreck driving the car when I first started but I feel that with time I have become a better driver and in your case, time will be the key also. Just make sure to practice driving on a regular basis and don’t worry about the test. Remember I made a big deal about it and it was nothing, lol? You’ll do fine!

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