Still At It

Yesterday, I went out driving again. Trying to get use to it without panicking and Mike said that I did a good job. I drove for about an hour and during that time I had periods were I was calm and in control and then other times I would start to doubt myself, my heart would start to race and my mind would repeat over and over that I can not do this, that I am going to wreck my mother in law’s car. My hands would start to hurt from gripping the steering wheel so damn tight. When I first started, it was cars passing me that got me nervous but now it’s going around turns. Cause I keep thinking that I am going to go over the yellow line when I am going around a turn and run head on into oncoming traffic. Or I’m afraid I will confuse the gas for the break.This is all stuff that comes into my head while I am driving. I wish I could push it out and not think about it but I do not seem to have the control to keep negative thoughts out of my head. Something as simple as driving and I am starting to have small panic attacks during the whole process. I need to get the negative thoughts and my self doubts under control soon cause I only have until the 17th of December to take the driving test.