I notice that Jenn and Whitters are participating in Reverb10 so I thought I would jump on the bandwagon (mind you I am starting 8 days late). Hopefully, I can keep it up for the month of December. I guess we will see.
Prompt One Word
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?
Confusion. This year has been an up and down roller coaster of emotions and I am still somewhat up in the air on what I want to do or what I should do. You only get one life and I am afraid I may be making the wrong choices just because I am afraid of change and letting go.
If I could pick the world that would capture 2011 it would happiness. I haven’t felt true happiness for more then a few seconds for many years. I’m wishing my 2011 is filled with happiness.
What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing — and can you eliminate it?
Since my full time job is as a content writer, I am writing for hours upon hours each and every day. However, my pleasure writing (blogging) is few and far between. I always push it back and say I don’t have time or there is nothing I have to write about. When in fact, I need to make time and come up with something to blog about.
Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors).
I honestly cannot think of a moment this year where I felt truly alive. There has been pain (more then there should have been), surprise, anger, love, hate, frustration and just about every other emotion you can think of. However, not at one of those moments did I truly feel alive. I would say the closet moments came during our mini vacation to Kennywood and Sandcastle this past August.
How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year?
I would like to say my daughter but since she officially turned into a teenager this year, she has the I-know-it-all attitude and the must-be-drugged-kicking-and-screaming-to-things-she-does-not-want-to-do mentality so it is hard to feel a sense of wonder with her at the moment. But I am forcing her to go out and do things with me and sharing the same likes together. We both have a love for most things Japanese so exploring more about the culture gives us a somewhat sense of wonder so I guess I will go with that for my answer. LOL
Prompt Let Go
What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?
Well, I have let go most of the anger, hurt and betrayal that I have been feeling for the past 4 years. It was extremely hard and I did not let go of it all but I am still working on it. Certain instances will rehash the last 4 years and all those horrible feelings will bubble up to the surface again but I am trying my damnedest to let go of everything that has happened to me since October 2006.
What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?
The last thing I made was Puppy Chow this morning. I had made some the other day but it was eaten rather quickly and Mike asked me if I could make more. It is extremely simple to make and the recipe is located on the back of any Chex cereal.Chex cereal, semi-sweet chocolate chips, peanut butter, vanilla extract and powdered sugar is all you need to make this delicious treat.
Actually, the month of December is probably my business time of the year for baking. Many family members receive homemade baked goodies from me (and Mike and Rave) as Christmas gifts.
Where have you discovered community, online or otherwise, in 2010? What community would you like to join, create or more deeply connect with in 2011?
Actually, community (for me at least) have diminished this year from the previous years. When I quit my job at the doctors office in January to work full time at home as a content writer and to concentrate on my photography business, I lost a lot of the day-to-day communication that occurs with an outside job. However, I hope that in 2011 I can get out of the house more and hang out with some friends.
Prompt Beautifully Different
Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you’ll find they’re what make you beautiful.
I would say my sense of humor. Even though I am filled with pain (emotional not physical), the people around me usually do not know. I try to keep on a happy face and joke around not taking things to seriously. Of course there are a handful of people in my life that I cannot do this with. They just get under my skin. But the majority of people think I am funny, goofy and easy going who would do anything for family. I get those traits from my Mom, Dad and Nan (my grandmother).
JessDecember 8, 2010 at 11:28 pm
It’s so much easier to have a laugh and deal with things on your own watch… and I always try to laugh no matter how shit I’m feeling — if you dont laugh, you cry right!? A sense of humor will ALWAYS make someone beautiful 🙂
CaityDecember 9, 2010 at 12:17 am
I almost did reverb too but decided not to. I have been enjoying reading everyone else’s though.