October has ended and November is in full swing. I don’t know how I feel about that. On one hand, I’m looking forward to decorating for Christmas and doing all the family-related Thanksgiving/Christmas activities that come along with the holiday season. On the other hand, I’m not particularly fond of the cold and just hate that, with each passing year, the time seems to go by so much quicker. And, at the beginning of the year, I honestly thought I would have more things accomplished by now then I actually have. Time can be a cruel bitch.
This time next year, Raven should be in college. And if she has it her way, she will be living in the dorms. Which means that for most of the day, it will just be me and the two cats until Mike comes home from work. While I am no stranger to being alone (as an only child I’m pretty much use to it), I am still not looking forward to her heading off to college. How could I? She has been one of the few constants in my life for over 17 years and now, in a matter of what will be mere months, she is going to be out of the house and starting the journey into her own adult life.
To say I’m sad about it would be an understatement.
On the bright side, the college she is going to is only about 20 minutes away, which means she will have no excuse to not come home on the weekends and holidays. And even if she does have excuses, I can easily stop by on my way grocery shopping.
It just still won’t be the same without her actually living here 24/7.
It won’t feel like home anymore.
It will feel like something is missing.