Life in General

My World Is Darker

March 20, 2018

This is the hardest post I have ever written. I have started and stopped so many times.

My baby, my best friend, Jedi, passed away on March 8.

It feels like a piece of me is gone. I have this constant feeling of dread.

Some moments, I’m doing okay. Other moments, I’m completely broken, crying until I’m hyperventilating.

I miss him so damn much and would give just about anything to get him back.

 

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4 Comments

  • Reply Andrea Ferrell March 20, 2018 at 8:44 pm

    There’s nothing that can take this pain away and I empathize with you so, SO much.

    I cry with you every time I see your posts. It’s hard to know which of you were luckier to have the other.

    Your world may be darker, but his was bright and full of endless love and devotion to the very end.

    It’s losing a family member – a child. One day it won’t hurt so much. One day you’ll be able to look at pictures and only smile.

    I’m sure he loved it when you smiled. 💕

    • Reply Manda April 1, 2018 at 1:27 am

      Thank you so much for your kind words. It helps more than you know.

  • Reply Kat March 21, 2018 at 12:33 pm

    Manda, I’m so, so, so sorry about the loss of your fur baby. It’s amazing how connected we become to these little guys. They become a part of our families and our lives. There have been so many times I’ve found comfort in nothing and no one else but my kitties, and I’m sure you’ve been the same with your own. I know it’s difficult right now, but time really does heal all wounds. Like Andrea said, there will come a time when the most you’ll feel when you think of Jedi is how amazing, cute and spunky he was. All the best <3

  • Reply Jamie April 1, 2018 at 1:28 am

    There’s absolutely no words or anything that can take the pain away from losing a beloved pet, but just so you know, we are all here for you if you ever need any one of us to talk to about this. As I’ve said on Facebook, I’m so so sorry for your loss, I know what it is like to lose a beloved pet, as I have lost two already. One due to old age and the other being hit by a careless drive (my second cat was a black cat who just happened to cross the street at the wrong time and got hit and died instantly, or so I was told). Even though we’ve lost our beloved pets, just know that Jedi would have wanted you to remember the good times you’ve had with him and not want to see you cry, also remember that he’s not hurting anymore, which is what I always tell myself when I look at my first cat’s picture and realize just how much I miss her, but I keep telling myself she’s better off not hurting than when she was alive and hurting. If that makes any sense?

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