It’s been close to two months since Jedi passed away. I can honestly say that it doesn’t get any easier, I’ve just had to learn how to live without him. And that right there hurts so damn much. It feels like I shouldn’t continue forward in my life without him. He was my best friend, my constant for almost 12 years, and going on with my life feels like I’m turning my back on him, like I didn’t really love him. I know that sounds ridiculous ’cause I know how much I love Jedi, how much he means to me, but I just can’t help feeling that way.
And I have all these things going on in my life that I want to share with him, and taking part in these things without having my beautiful ginger baby with me just feels so wrong.
I miss him so damn much.
This is the hardest post I have ever written. I have started and stopped so many times.
My baby, my best friend, Jedi, passed away on March 8.
It feels like a piece of me is gone. I have this constant feeling of dread.
Some moments, I’m doing okay. Other moments, I’m completely broken, crying until I’m hyperventilating.
I miss him so damn much and would give just about anything to get him back.
We’re moving back home!
After a year in Charleston, we’ve decided to return to West Virginia. We have loved our time in Charleston, South Carolina but the opportunity arose to go back home and we decided to take it. I will miss the weather and close proximity to Folly Beach, but not having our family and friends close by was a huge downside.
I don’t know where we’ll end up in this life, but I’m so thankfully that we’re in the position to experience different places.