I have been away from blogging for awhile cause . . . well . . . I just haven’t had the desire to blog or do anything else lately. Life throws me curve balls after curve balls and life even hits me upside the freakin head with the damn ball and somehow I pick myself up, dust myself off and get back into the game. It sucks, cause just for once I would love for my life to go in the good direction. Just for once I want to not have to sit back and wonder what is so wrong with me, what did I do to deserve all this crap that is thrown onto me. But alas. I do not see that happening. I will have to either be content with trying to find the silver lining through all the shit or lay down and die.