Author Archives: Manda

For some reason my website keeps going down and has been doing so for almost two days straight. I have tried to contact GoDaddy and haven’t received a response from either one of the emails I have sent them. And when ever I called them I was on hold for over 30 minutes and finally just hung up. I am a paying customer and this is how they repay me? Ugh. If things don’t straighten up I am hosting some place else cause this is getting down right ridiculous! This isn’t the first time this has happened with them and it probably won’t be the last.

Anywho, we got hit with another snow storm last night. Last time we measured we had 13 inches of snow. The roads look horrible and, as my Nan says, “It’s colder then a witch’s tit” outside. I was hoping that the storm would pass us over so I could make a trip to the mall but no go. I can not wait for summer!

Anyone who truly knows me knows my love for most things Alice in Wonderland. I have always loved the whole idea of going on an adventure like that and getting away from your crappy life. The funny thing is that people who think they know me think I love Peter Pan and the whole Tinkerbell scene and that can not be farther from the truth. Don’t get me wrong, I like the Peter Pan movies and stories and Tinkerbell and fairies are wonderful. But they just don’t hold the same kind of magic for me as Alice in Wonderland. Anywho, I finally got to watch SyFy’s retailing of the Lewis Carroll classic, simply titled Alice. And I loved it. L O V E D it! I even changed my layout to feature Hatter (portrayed by the oh so hot Andrew Lee Potts) cause he is just so damn adorable!  By the way, Raven hates it when I ask her why a raven is like a writing desk. 🙂

I signed up for an account with formspring.me so go and ask me anything. No matter what it is. You can keep it anonymous if you like.

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It’s hard to believe that two years ago I actually thought the picture below was decent of me. It’s also hard for me to grasp the concept that I was once that size. I was not a big child. In fact, I was rather small. That is until I hit the fifth grade, then I started packing on the pounds. My heaviest was in 2007 when I weighed in at 220 pounds. I was not happy with myself not one little bit. I was mad at everyone and everything and really didn’t know why. I hide my hatred for myself pretty well. I said I was fine with the size I was, even though it was not true.

It wasn’t until the end of 2006 that “really bad things” started to happen in my life. Because of stress, I lost 20 pounds. But I still weighed in at 200 pounds. The “really bad things” continued on and in the spring/summer of 2008 I dropped more weight. I choose to take the stairs at work to help with the weight lose and that work pretty well for me. That, added on with the continue stress, helped me drop more weight.

Now after two years I am down to 153 pounds. I am not at the weight I want to be. Since I am short (5’3″), 153 pounds look heavier on me then someone who is taller. I am wanting to get to at least 130 pounds, though I would like it much better if it would be 110 but I am being realistic. The thing that scares me the most is the thought of gaining that weight back. Oh well. I’ll just have to try my damndest not to let that happen.

Growing up, my mom and dad would tell me how special I was. How I was one in a million. Fact of the matter is, there is not one speck of truth in that. Just take a quick search online and read the “about me” section on some personal blogs. I am a dime a dozen. The blogging community is filled with gamer mothers just like me, who love horror movies too much and have a soft spot for most things Japanese. I am not unique, far from it. I am just like everyone else. And that makes me sad. Don’t get me wrong. I never really thought that I was one in a million or that I could not be replaced. But there is some happiness, some feeling of giddy pride to be thought of as irreplaceable. And when you finally come to the realization that your parents completely lied about that, that I could be easily replaced by the many that are just like me. Well, it kinda sucks.

Ya know, I seriously considered jumping on the bandwagon and doing a recap of 2009 with a year in pictures but 2009 (just like 2008 and 2007) was not that good of a year for me and the few highlights I had during ’09 are not worth drudging up all the other crap. So I think I will just let 2009 slip away into the past without another thought. Hopefully 2010 will be a hell of a lot better then the past three years.

And I think, for the first time, I will be doing a video blog in the next few days.

Christmas has come and gone, like it does every year, and this year was pretty uneventful. I got a total of $170.

Raven had a wonderful Christmas as usual. My dad and step-mom got her a mini laptop, which she loves, in the the color she wanted – lime green. She got a butt load of anime and manga DVDs, books, games and various other items from me and Mike. We also got her the playstation 2 that she has been wanting. She now has four gaming systems in her bedroom. Yeah, we are geeks and dorks and are turning our daughter into one.