My new glasses came in yesterday so I picked them up last night but had to wait until this morning to get them fitted. So I get them fitted and everything is blurry and they hurt but hopefully I will get use to them soon. Anyway, I go to clean them and there is a small hole in the middle of both lens. So I call Sterling Optical and they said to bring them in tomorrow morning. So we will see what happens. I am hoping to get contacts with a month.

Saturday night when me and Mike went fishing we didn’t catch anything at all, didn’t even have a bit. But Sunday morning when I woke up I went to clean my glasses like I usually do and all these scratches started to appear on my lens. Turns out it’s some coated that is on the lens that is coming off and there is no way to fix it. It’s pretty much like a hazy fog all over my lens and it makes it very difficult to see correctly. So yesterday I went to Sterling Optical and got an eye examine so I can get new glasses. It costs $459 for everything including the doctor visit and will take 5 to 7 days for them to be ready. And my MIL wanted us to pay her car insurance for her and we can’t right now especially with just having to pay for my glasses. So after all the crap with my glasses, me Mike and Raven go down to the food court at the mall to get some lunch and MIL shows up. And she asks about my glasses and I tell her what happens and then she starts “Yeah that’s what my glasses are doing.” No they are not! There is not a damn thing wrong with her glasses but if it’s happening to anyone else but her then she has to belittle it and make it seem like it’s no big deal. And then Mike starts talking about what the doctor had told me and MIL butts in about a brochure she got at the cell phone place. Cause this brochure is more important then what the doctor had to say. It really pisses me off. MIL is the type of person that everything has to be about her and only her. Nothing can be about anyone else. Like if Mike says Raven does something like I do. MIL butts in saying “Raven does it like me too.” And if someone says Raven looks like me when I was little, MIL says “Raven looks like Donielle (Mike’s sister)”. Raven doesn’t look anything like Donielle. I’m not saying it’s a good thing that Raven looks like me (cause it’s not) but she does. It’s just MIL has to have it all about her. If the world doesn’t revolve around her then it just doesn’t revolve.

Any way back to my glasses. I just want to hurry up and get them in so I can get use to them and everything can go back to normal. It will take a couple of weeks for me to get use to the new prescription and frames. I wish I could get disposable contact but since my prescription is so bad it will cost $250 for a pair of contacts that last a year cause they don’t make disposable contacts in my prescription. 🙁

The other day I was down at my Mom and Nan’s house and one of my aunts (we will call her Sally) was there with one of the girls that is stuck up her ass. We will call this girl Jackie. Well Jackie was showing Sally a magazine that apparently had pictures of celebrities without their make-up. Well Aunt Sally says to me. “Don’t you wish you had one of these big shot make up people so maybe you could be pretty”. Everyone laughs. Except me. I felt like shit. I have never done anything to these people to even warrant a statement like that. But none the less, there it was. I had my mom take me and Raven home and I waited there feeling like shit until it was time to go to sleep, hoping that I wouldn’t wake up the next morning. These are my family members and they are saying this stuff to me. I guess I should be use to it. Some members of my family have always said stuff like that to me. Even when my Dad left my mom, my mom told me it was my fault cause I wasn’t good enough for him. That he left cause he wanted a better child. So you would think that after dealing with this crap for about 18 years (since I got out of my “cute” stage) that I would be use to it. Well I’m not. It still hurts like hell. And poor Mike was trying to make me feel better. Telling me that it doesn’t matter what those idiots think. That he thinks I’m beautiful (I know it’s a lie but it’s nice to hear anyway). I just want to move away from these people. My mom and Nan and Aunt “Sally” think that “Jackie” and “Suzie” (another girl that aunt sally has stuck up her butt) are just the greatest people in the world. They don’t take care of their kids and are trouble makers and to hear my family talk these 2 girls are sweet little angels and I’m just someone to be there if they need something. I really think my family would be happier with me if I wouldn’t take care of Raven, Mike would divorce me, I would get arrested and just act like I was still a teenager. Then maybe I would fit in with them.