Finished up my long day at work a few hours ago. This 10 hour shift on Tuesday’s is really starting to get to me. Actually, everything is starting to get to me. I feel mentally and physically burnt out. I hate going to work and I only work about 3 days a week. I love the people I work with and usually have a good time but mentally my mind is a non stop train of raging thoughts about everything bad in my life. It’s hard to move on into the future when your mind is stuck in the past. I really truly try to not think those bad thoughts but they just pop in my head no matter what I do and once that happens everything is infected. It feels as if I have no control over my mind, over my thoughts.

I need a vacation from myself.

Yes, I have made another blog. Some might not see the need in it but there are just some things that I want to write about that I do not want on my business / photography blog. And I didn’t want to make certain post private so the only solution I could find was to start up a personal blog that I will keep separate from my business and away from certain people. A girl needs a place to vent and let out all her frustrations and worries. I keep most of the unhappy things to my self and away from people in the real world and it just sometimes feels like keeping all the unhappiness inside me, hidden away from everyone is slowly killing me, making me empty inside. I don”t want that to happen. I want to be happy, not just pretending to everyone that everything is ok and I don”t have a care in the world. That”s what this blog is here for. My own little therapeutic attempt to help me from going insane.

So please bare with me while I get all the kinks out of this template.

I also have merged the database from my old personal blog onto this one.

OK, I am in desperate need of help!

I am trying to come up with a cool, unique, fun or just decent name for my photography business. And so far the only thing I can come up with is Hocus Focus. So I am asking all my lovely readers for help. I want your ideas, all of them!

Help me name my business!

On another note, I have a few “free” clients lined up and am looking forward to working with them and expanding my almost non existent portfolio. I have also been doing my research and looking around at other photographers in my area and I think I am just as good as majority of them. I know that there are nay sayers out there that think I am being stupid for trying to start up a photography business. To those people I say this: I have always wanted to be a photographer but lack the courage to try to take it to more then just a hobby level. I have finally mustard up the strength to put my fears aside and just go for it full force. If I fall flat on my face, well then you can say I told you so all you want. But at least I gave it my all and I won’t be going through the rest of my life with another “what-if”.