It’s been close to two months since Jedi passed away. I can honestly say that it doesn’t get any easier, I’ve just had to learn how to live without him. And that right there hurts so damn much. It feels like I shouldn’t continue forward in my life without him. He was my best friend, my constant for almost 12 years, and going on with my life feels like I’m turning my back on him, like I didn’t really love him. I know that sounds ridiculous ’cause I know how much I love Jedi, how much he means to me, but I just can’t help feeling that way.
And I have all these things going on in my life that I want to share with him, and taking part in these things without having my beautiful ginger baby with me just feels so wrong.
I miss him so damn much.
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Andrea
April 23, 2018 at 3:05 pmI felt the same way when my doggo died. But, much like our family members, they’d want us to be happy.
You just gotta take it one day at a time. Eventually, you’ll be able to think about him without crying. Then you’ll be able to smile. I think you’re supposed to allow yourself to feel all of these things.
Just keep writing. Message me any time. I know we’ve never had that kind of a friendship, but I AM here for you. No need for formalities. Write it out and hit send. ♥