May the 31st marks 3 months since Jedi passed. I’m doing okay, I guess. As well as can be expected considering I’ve lost my soulmate, and yes, Jedi was my soulmate. I truly believe that soulmates are not always romantic in nature, nor are they always human, and I know that Jedi was in deed my soulmate.
I hide my emotions about him being gone fairly well when I’m around people. But then I get into the shower, shove a washcloth in my mouth, and scream until nothing comes out and cry until I can no longer produce tears. During the day my mind is occupied with work so I am usually okay, but at night, when everything is quiet and there’s nothing to push the fact out of my mind that he’s really gone, well that’s when it’s the hardest.
But I have to keep all of that to myself. All the despair, the pain, the wanting nothing more than being with my baby again, that has to stay hidden. Cause people suck, people are assholes, and people keep trying to get me to take their cat(s), as if that would make me feel better.
I already have two cats that I love dearly, and I wouldn’t give them up for anything. But having Nefarian and Widget doesn’t make Jedi’s death any less painful, so why the hell would they think “getting another cat” would help me “heal”. It takes everything in my being not to put my fist through their face when they start hinting (some even come right out and say it) about me taking their cat or getting another cat.
I don’t expect people to understand my love and devotion to my cats. Hell, I don’t even expect people to respect it. What I do expect is for them to not be inconsiderate pricks. And I really don’t think that’s too much to ask. Especially since I am very vocal about how much my cats mean to me, and just how important Jedi is.
KatJune 3, 2018 at 3:31 pm
I’m so sorry, Manda 🙁 I don’t get the whole “get another cat to feel better” thing either. You don’t hear people telling a widow “just get another husband!” when she’s at the funeral for her deceased husband. Our cats become family. There have been times in my past when I felt closer to my cats than anyone else in my life. They are your listening ear, they are there for you when you’re struggling mentally or physically and they genuinely enjoy your company…so no wonder they become such a spot in your soul. I also agree that anyone, even animals, can become soul mates in life.
I’m so sorry you’re struggling, Manda 🙁 I hope time will help to heal your pain and make it easier to remember Jedi in a lighter mood.
SquiergbhDecember 31, 2020 at 6:04 pm
and was erased, and on cleaned
FoamlhuJanuary 23, 2021 at 7:13 am
Preserved about 300 thousand.
StanmoreevkFebruary 16, 2021 at 8:17 pm
At the same time, many antique
FenderngdFebruary 19, 2021 at 2:03 pm
55 thousand Greek, 30 thousand Armenian
DysonoreFebruary 22, 2021 at 11:20 pm
Europe, and in Ancient Russia