Whether or Not

Remember months back when I made a post for July goals?

No? You can read it here if you like.

Well, one of the goals was finally making a decision about something big that I was keeping under wraps.

Well, I never did make a final decision about that big question. But I think that this month may be it. I need to shit or get off the pot, as they say. If I decide against the big thing then I need to take the steps to ensure it doesn’t happen, but if I decide for it, then I need to get started.

Yeah, I know this is very vague post and a very vague topic but I don’t want to go into detail until I have a definitive decision one way or another.

I’m just hoping that by the end of this month, the decision will be made and I can stop the almost constant debate in my head.

My Battle with Diet Coke and Aspartame

This month marks the 1 year anniversary of me giving up Diet Coke (as well as any other diet pop or anything with aspartame in it) and I am so glad I did.

Before I gave it up, I would wake up 3 to 4 times a night not being able to breathe because I was holding my breath while I slept. That went on for many, many years. But I never once associated it with aspartame. And, despite knowing all the horrible side effects of aspartame, I continued to drink Diet Coke. In fact, it was what I drunk 99-percent of the time. It wasn’t until January of of 2014 that I decided enough was enough.

What was the final straw?

Well, for several weeks I was having heart palpitations and shortness of breath. And it wasn’t just happening every once in a while. It was occurring multiple times every minute for several hours, every single day.

And after experiencing for over a week, I knew I had to do something. Now, I’m not too stupid. I know that aspartame is a horrible thing that causes all kinds of unpleasant and potentially deadly side effects. But I was addicted to Diet Coke. No matter what I drank (including water) I still felt completely thirsty, unless I was consuming Diet Coke.

Now, I haven’t been completely Diet Coke free this whole time. In May of 2014, I ordered a Diet Coke with my chicken nuggets at Chick-fil-A. After consuming less than half of the drink, I started to feel dizzy, sick to my stomach and my vision became weird (like when you step into the sunlight after being in the dark for an extended period of time). That experience solidified the fact that I would (God willing) never go back to diet soda again.

I honestly don’t know how I did it. How I mustered up the willpower to give it up cold turkey. I admit, it was extremely hard. But what I miss most is the fizz on my throat. That carbonation felt so good going down, especially when my throat was dry or scratchy.

A New Year

Our first picture of 2015.

While I don’t want to make resolutions, since I never seem to stick to them, there are some things I want to try to accomplish in 2015. If I don’t accomplish them, I don’t want to beat myself up over it. But I want to give these goals a real college try this year.

  • Lose Weight – This is something that I have been trying to accomplish on and off for the past 2 years. I allowed my weight to creep back up a bit and I am not happy because of it.
  • Work more Efficiently – I have a habit of getting sidetrack and/or procrastinating when it comes to my work. Since I work at home, I need to find the perfect balance that allows me to work without becoming distracted.
  • Be More Loving – I have a habit of not showing people that I love that I love them on a regular basis. I just get bogged down with the mundane day-to-day tasks that I often overlook the fact that I need to make sure that the people I love know that I love them.
  • Shop Smarter – At one point, my husband and I were clipping coupons and becoming a bit more savvy when it came to purchasing groceries and everyday items. But we have lapsed on that and I would love to start it up again. I don’t want to be one of those extreme couponers, I just want to save money.
  • Become More Financially Stable – When it comes to finances, we have come a long way from say 4 years ago, but we still have a long way to go. I want to try to make 2015 the year when our whole financially situation becomes even better!
  • Build Up A Food Storage – This is something that I just started thinking about but think it’s a really good idea.
  • Clean and Reorganize – There are a few rooms in the house (storage/computer room, basement and garage) that I desperately need to clean and reorganize. I keep putting it off but it is something I want to accomplish early in the year.

There you have it. My goals for the New Year. Don’t get me wrong, 2014 wasn’t a bad year. I had some small bouts of depression here and there but nothing serious. There was actually some very good things that happened this past year and I’m hoping 2015 is even better!